i wish i could float away

i wish i could float away

seriously
just up and float right off the face of the earth
i don't like thinking
the act of it makes me sick sometimes
i wonder how you think
or she thinks
and what you must think
of what my thoughts have become
of the thoughts i let consume me
and how you both must hate it
just as much as i do

i am consumed by two thoughts in particular
i wish sometimes
that neither of them existed

you know you have loved something
when you damn its existence
to the depths of your mind
to be buried
amongst childhood fantasy
and the burden of being carefree

i always heard my parents say
i wish i was young again

well i wish i was young again

Oxford Camerata

nobody said radio silence would be easy
but everyday that goes by..

damn it all to hell

i just...